History Repeats

history repeatsI did not like when she ignored me
When she did not talk to me
When she left me on my own
To succumb to confusions.

What could be the reason
I struggled to figure out
But always failed
Succumbing to silence.

Minutes of silence stretched to hours
Hours to days and days to week
And then all came back to normalcy
I succumbed to the situation.

My best friend, my role model
My confidant and my support
All dissolving into thin air
I succumbed to defeat, unaware.

Now, years later, I am a mother to teenagers
I now understand the reason
Why my mom chose to be silent
She was living her life with her ups and downs.

Having experienced the consequences
I cannot see my kids withering
To whatever I am facing in my life
Be it my hormonal imbalances or health issues.

I choose to make it clear, my reasons for silence
I take my time out to reconcile
For I want to leave a beautiful image etched
In the hearts of my kids to remember, long after I am gone.

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